What’s Happening now?
Well I had to have a party and what a party I had. I went away with the girls to Liverpool – Deb’s eye launch party.
I danced and partied till the next morning. Not wanting the feeling to end.
Not one person that I met flickered or noticed anything wrong with my eye. I dare say even I forgot about it in the end.
I’d come through the most painful, traumatising, scariest time I had ever experienced in my life, and came through on top…………the winner!!
I cant stress enough though, I could NOT have done it without my family and friends, I owe everyone so much, I could never repay them in a million years.
Also I know I haven’t mentioned it before but the web site “Losteye.com”and the people on it, saved my life.
2am I would log on and cry and moan and someone was there.
I laughed, cried and talked for hours to the wonderful people on there who have all been through similar tragedies and worse and come through. They were my inspiration. Now its my turn to be someone else’s.
I’m also back at work and loving every minute, studying, driving, the lot. My colleagues have been the best.
I’m so thankful to get my life back 110%. I totally refused to let this thing bring me to my knees. People keep saying I’m brave……why?
It’s human instinct to fight to survive, I’m just being human.
February 5th 2009
Well here I am one year later and boy what a year.
My eye is now better than ever, if that was at all possible, well in my eyes (pardon the pun) it was far from perfect at first but I respected what Robin, my occularist said and was patient and allowed it to settle into its final resting place. Now I am ever so pleased with it.
I do get pain if I try to move it too much, such as too far left or right, so I don’t try. I now know my limitations and to be honest no one ever notices if I don’t move it to the extreme, lets face it who looks at you straight on and watches you look up and down??? It’s the more detailed, tiny movements like when holding a conversation with someone that is the most important. And not one person has yet to ask if I have something wrong with my eye, or even look inquisitively at me.
I do have problems in the cold though and that’s slight pain/discomfort. I sometimes feel my lids have frozen to my prosthetic and feel a deep pain behind, but I have been advised to give it a little extra lubrication in the cold.
I get asked if I take it out at night………………yeah I put it in a glass next to my bed Ha ha ha!!
I rarely touch it actually. It can get a film forming over it which is not noticeable unless you look real close up, and I mean close. Then I take it out and clean it with contact lens solution. Also if I wear heavy eye make up it feels real different, like the lid is too heavy, bizarre really, and I have to remove every trace of make up before going to bed, otherwise its all over my prosthetic…messy.
Otherwise I forget its there, its part of me now, and I’ve accepted it.
I owe a lot of my recovery to Losteye.com, an absolute godsend to me. There are some awe inspiring people on there, and now some very good friends.
My relationship with Steve is still going strong. I can never thank him or make him realise what he has done for me, he is a remarkable man and I am so lucky to have found him.
And to top it all……there is a very happy ending to this story, I have just secured a job in New Zealand and we are in process of emigrating.
So you see, everything happens for a reason, I believe I had to lose my eye to find steve and embark on my lifelong dream of emigrating to a nicer place with a wonderful man.
Remember:
“The fearless are merely fearless. People who act in spite of their fear are truly brave.”
Good luck and never forget your dreams
